12 Months and a Whole new World

Some scientists say that the majority of your personality develops by the age of 12. Thats not to say that you life path and bad or good traits are set in stone, but often times an adolescent will have the same major characteristics for the rest of there life. If someone does seem very different from their high school or adolescent self, they have probably learned to reveal or conceal, tone down or enhance certain aspects of their personality, but they are still there. So how does this relate to me or you, or anything? Well, it has been 12 months since my last post and my life has taken more twists and turns than a load of mixed color laundry. So am I different? And, what constitutes different?

If faced with a situation today that is the same as one a year ago, I would definitely respond differently. I still laugh at many of the same jokes, hold myself to similar standards, but my mind takes everything in on a different level now. I don't mind if I don't preform perfectly, and my mind no longer keeps me awake by replaying conversations and situations in my head. Have I grown up? Grown sideways? Maybe Im not really "going" anywhere, but just moving. And most importantly, I've thrown out the desire to stick to a specific path with every stone laid in its place long before a foot would touch it. Im still "me," but I decided what that me was and what I want that to be. Yes be, not appear to other people as, or seem, or try, but actually be. I no longer define myself through others eyes, or wholly assess my thoughts from the reactions of others. Sure, I care what people think, but I put much more weight in what I think of myself. 

So, maybe my blogs will seem different, less definitive, more subjective, or indistinguishable from my previous style. This year, has been a year of accruing self awareness, getting slapped in the face by society, and finding people that I never new existed in such quantities. So get ready, cause I'm ready. As ready as I can get in a year, for a new year of experiences, blogs, and words of wisdom that may help you see something new or tackle a point in your life.